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Sunday, February 27, 2011; 12:39 AM
you always question why am i so good at tanking stuff. but at times like this, when it's just left with you & you alone with all the problems & troubles, and just no one to rant to, the only resort is to just swallow everything down, forgive and forget. nothing else can be done & no one is to be blame. probably life's just like this. at times of fun, it just makes you feel really fortunate & blessed to be in that situation, to be in this life. but it just really make me realise, sometimes, which are the ones that i can really fall back to when in times of need. is it really them??
no one to be blame. when everyone just have their own life to lead, almost no one will give a fuck about you. even your family, sometimes, don't even give a damn. what do you expect from friends. just glad that there just this few that's always there to hear me rant and stuff. thinking about it, it just feels that everything is enough. don't have to be so greedy to ask for more, just for those few to always to be there. even if your social circle stops here, but with just those few around, it's just good enough.
& it's starting to feel tired to those insincere ones. when you thought that you had taken things for granted from them, you're just wrong. because when you stop & look back, things were just totally different from what you always thought was right. you may even be taken advantage of without knowing. & that sudden realization just sucks. it just makes you feel as though you were dropped down from the 11th storey. to be taken for granted for, and yet they are never grateful towards you. it just sucks totally. and everything in the past just feels so fake.
there's just that other side of everyone out there, but is just how different they are from the ones you see. & which to believe, is just up to you.
so sometimes, rather to not know so much. just that good side & it's enough. because anything beyond that is just going to add a big twist in that relationship.
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ALEXIA.GERMAINE.LEE 